Trusting myself has been something that I have had to continue working on. I find that it is easy to trust myself and follow my intuition when it does not involve other people, but if trusting myself means taking an action that may disappoint someone else then I struggle. For example this could be that I do not want to go somewhere but I feel obligated to because I have promised a friend that I would. I could either trust the feeling that I have and not go, or I could abandon myself and go even though I do not want to.
Unfortunately there have been many occasions where I have gone out because of obligation, rather than doing what I wanted to do. I do not beat myself up over betraying myself because I can see the progress that I have made. I am conscious of the fact that I am not following what I would really like to do. I can feel that my actions are not sitting well with me and I know that the next step is to act on them.
Each day I remind myself:
- That I am enough. I can trust myself without needing validation from others. It is okay to put myself first and do what is in my heart.
- I need to keep promises to myself. This helps me to build trust in the fact that I will follow through on what I say. Breaking promises to myself gradually erodes my self-esteem.
- To be kind to myself because this is a journey and I am learning on the way. Aiming to become the best version of me, achieving the goals and dreams that I have for myself and also being the best mother that I can be to my kids.
Gaining trust in yourself is a process, there will be times that it is easier than others, but the main thing is to continue and not give up.
The Anonymous Golden Child 